I'm going to try a single resolution this year. Of course, I always have numerous goals I'm working towards, but I would like one big fat goal that I achieve this year. That goal is health through weight loss.
Currently, I weigh 215 lbs. When I got pregnant, I was approximately 190 (high for me, mostly because of the depression) and when I checked into the hospital, I weighed in at 240, so I'd like to pretend that I've already lost 25 lbs, rather than think of it as a 50 lb gain. This makes me feel good and like I can accomplish my weight loss. My ultimate goal is to be under 70 kgs (154 lbs), but I have never weighed that little in my adult life, so I may have to adjust the goal as I approach it. I have broken this into interim goals of being under 200 lbs (I would like to achieve this by the time I return to work in mid-February) and being under 180 lbs by the end of April when some of the Korean relatives will be visiting. From there, I will re-assess the weight portion of my goal.
Really my goal is threefold: 1) to be in a healthy weight range for my height, 2) to have eating habits that I would like my son to emulate, and 3) to build my activity level back up to a high level I used to enjoy before I was diagnosed with ulcerative colitis.
The ways I plan to achieve this goal are as follows:
1) I want to start doing meal planning. Since one-month cooking sounds a little intimidating, I plan to start with once-a-week cooking. This will help eliminate the random eating out that really should only be on special occasions.
2) Make water my primary liquid. I should not be drinking much else. I may try quitting soda. Right now, I'd rather focus on other things, but I am going to reach for a glass of water FIRST and then have something else if I still want it.
3) Exercise in some fashion everyday. I've noticed it has a huge impact on my mood when I go out in the stroller with the baby, even if I at first feel like I'm too tired or overwhelmed by my to-do list to bother. Honestly, 20 minutes of walking is sometimes even better for me right now than a 20 minute nap or a 20 minute laundry session. And it's good for the baby, too.
4) Track my weight. Possibly keep a food journal. Whenever I do this consistently, I tend to lose or AT LEAST maintain.
5) Observe and journal about my emotional relationship to food and focus on fullness/food cues. I may share some of this on the blog, but a lot of it is very personal. I may just note it in my offline journal. But I think this is a key element of long-term weight loss that I sometimes don't put as much work into as I really should.
If I implement all of these things, but I don't quite hit my weight loss goal dates, I know that's ok because these habits are really the ones I need to become healthy. Being a mom has really underscored the significance of health and of being a healthy role model. I want to be able to chase after my little guy as he grows up and for him not to have to struggle with the emotional food issues I have dealt with in my life. For him to learn this really well, I need to learn it better myself.
This is my resolution for 2012. It is my only one. I have other things I hope/plan to accomplish, but this is the one thing I will focus on this year. I will keep you posted now and then.
Happy New Year!